current situation.

so everyone seems to know my situation by now so it's no point of stating it again. everyday that i live through it i learn something new about the people i know. For example, everyone that is really close to my Gf seemed to cease almost all communications with me. now i could understand them being a little upset, but for them to stop talking to me because of something i did 4 months ago is a little funny. so, i thought of it in another way. As i thought about it i realized that the people that are close to the both of us still talk to me alot. Then i realized that those people that don't talk to me anymore only talked to me because i am with my Gf. I took it into speculation for a moment and flipped the script. now if she was to do what i did, what would happen? would the people that are so mad a me now, be that mad at her? would they stop talking to her? i also wonder if they would actually want her to tell me, or keep it on the low like i did, before i realized my mistake. are people really that confused with themselves that they can't decide what they want to do? honestly i couldn't see any of the people that stopped talking to me stop talking to her. they just wouldn't they only stopped talking to me because it's me. it made me realize that the people she chose to be around are hypocrites. i took into consideration my close friends and they wouldn't have stopped talking to her, so it's not like they're being hypocrtitcal at all. Then again people tend to be hypocrtical by nature. I just don't get it.

Oh... another thing. why don't people talk to me about this? i've gotten one person to talk to me about this. she has stopped talking to me, but she says it's temporary for 66 hours lol. she's just awkward so she doesn't fit into the above section's group of people. actually no there have been about 3 people that talked to me briefly. Now.. i did the actions, yet almost nobody has talked to me about it. They've talked ABOUT me, but not TO me. I don't understand how you'll learn anything out of talking about people if you don't know what you're talking about. you won't learn what type of person someone is because you didn't talk to them. you're making a bunch of assumptions that just lead to false accusations. if you want to view a person based of false accusations then that's fine with me, but it won't make you any better as a person. like, nobody knows how i feel about the whole thing unless they talk to me about it. ya i put some of it out there in my blogs, but you won't get everything out of them. they'll still be assumptions. actually no, they'll be better. they'll be inferences, which you can base off my words but still not get the meaning. if you think i feel one way, but you aren't sure how about you just idk.. maybe ask how i feel about it. you look at me and say idc... my face says idc but my heart doesn't. unless you can see my heart's emotions you won't know that unless i tell you. gosh just ask a f'ing question for once.


Oh but i do applaud someone for reading my blog and realizing that they judged me incorrectly before they actually read the blog and made an inference on how i felt. i thank that person for at least trying.

this blog thing is fun. i could get used to this. Later!