today was a day of ups and downs. i'm not sure which one was more occurent, but they were definitely there. the night before this one, I told myself i would wake up at 5 to finish my work that i hadn't finished last night. I didn't sleep too well and woke up about 4 times before 5. then once 5 hit i didn't want to get up, so i went back to sleep. and woke up about 10 minutes later. i repeated that process until about 6:08. i realized that i really have like no determination to do my work. i wasn't able to get up and i would rather had failed then get up. on the same token, i also came to the conclusion that it just takes me awhile to realize when i'm being stupid and try to do better. I finished my work and caught the bus in time. normal entry into the school. i went to laye to see if my outlines had improved or not. he told me that im' getting better. i was pretty happy to hear that, because i tried harder than i did before. i think i may actually get a B or A on it. i went to... oh ya klawonn's room, but before i got there i saw yvette come out =]. i thought that's how i would look but when i saqw her i noticed something in her face and she didn't come to me she just walked away. i was a little bothered by that but i knew that something had to be wrong so it didn't really affect me that much. we got to keith's room and she told me that she is in trouble. i don't understand why she is being treated the way she is, but i think it's being a little unfair to her. anywhoo... Food and nutrition was full of laughs. WHO THE F*** CUTS FRENCH FRIES. hahaha lmao vernon was killing me. didn't do much, in that class as normal. 2nd period is where my first down comes into play. i walk down the halway and see yvette still mad, and now on top of everything she can't find her Ipod. i would return the laughter to her from when someone stole my DS, but i dont feel as though it's necessary. So, i get into class and i'm fine. then i make a joke about how i'm on probation and Jasmine starts yelling and cussing at me. I do not like when people yell at me at all. it angers me. i especially don't like when they're yelling cus words at me. i didn't respond to anyone for awhile. i did my work and could tell people knew that something was wrong with me. uhm... left that class and went to english. that's when an up occured. i don't even know why. i just got high spirits i guess. anyway, i didn't do anything special that class. i read my book for bookshare. though i did realize that people really think that i'm different. all i did was tell them to look for fear and everyone says thats something different. why are you so different? i don't really know the answer to that question, so i didn't attempt to answer it. uhm... rated girls but not really. yvette gave Edem and miles higher scored than me, but yet she likes me so much more lol. i don't really get how that works, but whateverrrr. I was supposed to do yvette's math club work but i forgot. she tried to throw all of it on me before 4th period. i didn't find that to be fair, but i told her i would do it, so i attempted anyway. Sua and i started our own journal similar to miles' and sabrina's journal thing, but i don't think ours will be that successful. i hope that it turns out ot be, but i mean what could i really gain from this? idk. 4th period was the same chilled watched stuff on youtube, and left lol. i did realize when we had like 4 min left that i hadn't done any of yvette's problems except one. i was pretty disappointed in myself. i didn't do anything all class and could have done her problems but i didn't. school ended and yvette was happier i guess. she wasn't like =D but she was like =], so that brought up my spirits when i saw her again. uhhh i went home... went to sleep without telling anyone. i had to clean the bathroom. didn't talk to yvette much. found out that i could do stuff on weekends =]. almost went to mccoy's house, because he got UNS, but he left lol. i was stoked to play it but couldn't, because i didn't clean the bathroom. Heat and I lost a match on GB. it was actually quite entertaining but the loss was upsetting and demoralizing. My brawl has begun to malfunction. i hope it was only for that brief period. not much happened. oh and i realized that i need to start wrting my diary in a journal for two reasons:
1) it's portable and i can write on the go, instead of waiting untilt i get home
2) how private is a diary that anyone can see? doesn't that defeat the purpose of it?
OH and lately i have been like ridiculously horny. like i need some sex badly.
ya a pretty ok day i guess. it seems like it was more ups than downs from what i typed in this entry so... the day was fine.
might not be doing these entries online anymore.
but i'll still blog =]
Later!
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