almost eight

Title means it's almost my eighth blog.
yaayyyuhhhzzzzz.
i feel like a n00b compared to dav who has like fricken 100.
anywhoo. this is going to be an ongoing blog. like i'll type things as they happen.

i wake up to this crap. some odd way miles just so happened to find my blogspot. Yvette is mad because i wondered why she wanteed to be friends with someone that i'll obviously have to start communicating, though she doesn't want me communicating with her. for all that i could just start talking to her now. and, to top it all off, it's raining. why is miles telling me not to look at his blog like i've read any of them? what bothers me is that he mysteriously found my blog. how did that happen? meh i'll ask, though i'm pretty sure i know the answer. so she asks me if i regret going back with her. like huh? does that even sound like it makes sense. maybe i just didn't make my last blog clear enough. lmfao, so i was right on how he found it. should make another blogspot. i found out that somethings i do are actually for myself and this is one of them. I'm getting slightly annoyed by the fact that i'm getting questioned about things that i already said. i always wondered who i am. like everyone sees me in a completely different way than i do. My parents think i'm some gifted genius that could have done anything with his life that he wanted. others see that --- pause. haha i got the from B.G. so... some odd way. i keep getting the same thing of i regret going back with her. WHAT...THE...FUCK... like are you kidding me? that doesn't even sound like it makes sense. i'm pretty sure i said i would like to see how different things would be. hth is that = i regret going back with you?
if i were to read what i wrote, then i would be ok with it. i'm not understanding it. So... i'm guessing the whole "if i could do it all over again, i wouldn't go back with yvette" thing is the only thing people pay attention to. i'm pretty sure i explained why afterwards. shit is beginning to piss me off. so she goes off and writes this huge a blog about things that i wondered? i can't wonder now. lol geez just kill me now if that's the case. the funniest thing is... it's a blog about a misinterpretation and a question with my reasoning as to why i see it as being an iffy idea. One thing i noticed is... people seemed to she, in particular, only seemed to focus on the first two things i said. like what about the rest of it? you're not going to question me about anything else. this is bullshit. makes no sense to me at all. maybe if somebody said something different then i could see it making sense. --- too. like really what do people see in me? My teachers, my parents, my peers. It is like I open up their eyes. like one math teacher, K-wizzle of 3-point-1-4 lmao, he once said "sometimes i look at you and i see something different" idk wtf that meant. it was clear to me that he saw something in me that he doesn't see in others. sua once told me that i was her inpiration to be herself. miles said that he wouldn't be him if it weren't for me. I... don't get it. i'm just a kid. well a young adult now lol. most of you will never see me again after high school. man... fucking people. another thing. do... people really think that I didn't have to make a choice. ok so apparently there is this stigma going around that when you cheat it doens't hurt you. hold up... what? dude are you serious? let's think about this. you love two people. you have to pick ONE. this decisions isn't going to hurt. of course not it only decides your future relationship between one of them. it can't hurt. >_> dumbasses. omg marcus you hurt me so much. i fucking hurt myself. maybe people forget that i had to choose. it's because i did the wrong thing that it can't hurt me. Then i get some dumb shit like it hurt so much. i know how it feels.


The thing that bothers me the most of out anything is that this blog had so much of an effect. My thoughts... not actions... not an intention.... just something i wondered caused all this controversy.


Miles... i don't know your blogspot lmao
it's kind of hard to read something i can't see lol.

hopefully brittany's party is teh sexxoorrrrzzzz.
lighten up my day a bit.